Saturday, August 27, 2011

What's on your list?

A friend of mine posted on Facebook today some things she has always wanted to do. And this got me thinking, what are some of the things I have always wanted to do? What's left to be done?

I have come to realize I am not an ambitious person. My list is not full of fun and exciting things. And most of it seems to be accomplished. Some of what's on my list is the most simple and basic things.

Get Married: Check

Be a Mom: Check check check

Be a good mom: only time will tell

Give my husband a son: not going to happen now, but I'm okay with it. =)

Fly on a plane: Check

Take a train: ? to be completed

Bungy Jump: Did this at an amusement park. Scared the snot out of me! But I did it!

Get Married on a beach: ? I can renew my vows there I suppose, so to be completed

Swim in ocean water so clear you can see the bottom: Check

Go a tropical place: Check

Go to Atlantis: Check

Drive a Ferrari: ? to be completed

Have a professional massage: check

Spend a Christmas with my extended family up in New England. Rent a place out. Cut down our own tree, make hand made decorations. Only gifts we bring are for the kids. Just good ole' family time complete with snow: ? to be completed

Go to Disney World with my family: Check

Build our own house: Check

Have a brand new car: Check

Win the lotto: ? Guess I should start playing if I want to win. lol To be completed. lol

Take my family to a secluded beach: ? To be completed

Visit California: ? To be completed

See New York around Christmas: ? to be completed

Vacation in Maine (summer): ? to be completed

Volunteer at a soup kitchen: ? Waiting until the kids are older. I want them to do it too.

Learn Italian: ? to be completed

Swim with dolphins: CHECK

Snorkel: ? to be completed

Laser Eye Surgery: ? to be completed

Hang glide: ? To be completed...maybe. Between my nerves and hate of flying...not sure why I want to do this one. lol

See, I'm not the ambitious type. No mountain climbing. No climbing the corporate ladder. No record breaking. No job things listed at all because all I have wanted to be is a mommy and wife. And really no travel outside the United States. I use to want to go to Germany and visit family, and visit France and Israel. But I can't stand to fly. So those are out! And I'm okay with it. lol

The only other thing I have wanted for a long while is out of my control. And that's for my husband to propose again, a romantic way, with a gorgeous ring for our anniversary. He'll never do it. I am coming to terms with this. I still love the big botch-a-ga-loop.

So all and all, I'd say that most of my list is done. And what isn't, there is still is plenty of time for. Hopefully, when my time comes, I can say I have done all these things. My list may not be fancy, but it's all mine.

What's on your list?

Thursday, August 25, 2011


Praise God!!!! The kids had a great day! My eldest even made 2 new friends! =) WOOHOO! My middle girl is still super shy and made no friends. =( But she did play with our neighbor some and said she loves her teacher and school! I know in time she'll have friends too.

I'm so thankful for this! Answered prayer! YAY! And, I didn't break down today! I had breakfast with a friend, took my youngest to the dr (she's sick) and that pretty much kept me busy seeing as how the dr. was running late.

Then I got to get the kids and hear all about their day.

I'm so very thankful for these answered prayers tonight.

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Time for a shift, a change

School starts tomorrow for my girls. And I am saddened by this. We spent a lot of our summer packing and getting ready to move, then moving. We're finally settled and feel like summer is just starting, and instead school is.

It's the time of year when our schedules shift. When everything we have been doing changes. Bed time is earlier. Homework will now be part of our daily lives once again. Schedules will be a part of our lives once again. Not to mention the early hour we must all now arise in the morning.

I wanted more quality time with the kids. This stinks. And to make a mother's heart all the more heavy, my eldest has cried several times this evening. She is so afraid to start a new school. She knows no one. I can understand her anxiety. I have had all the motherly talks with her about being herself and she'll have friends in no time. But she is scared. And I'm worried for her. She's a great kid. I just want her to have an easy time making friends. She had so many at her other school. She will definitely be in my prayers this night.

I truly don't want tomorrow to come. I don't want my kids to start back to school yet. I want more time with them to snuggle and cuddle and play. They're good kids.

But tomorrow, I will put on my brave front. I will give them their special breakfast. I will smile and cheer them on. I will encourage them. That's what mom's do.

Only after they are gone, will I most likely cry, and count the hours until they are home once again. I can't wait to hear about their day. I pray it goes well for them both.

I think this weekend will be one of extra hugs and snuggles for us all.

Yes, it's that time of year for change and shifting once again. No one ever likes it. But it's always necessary.

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Birthday Bash

So today was my birthday. =) And it was an amazing day. I got phone calls, texts, and I am still reeling over how many FB "happy birthday" messages I got today! I didn't realize I knew that many people, let alone that many cared. I am floored!

My hubby got the kids out of the house this morning so I could sleep in. Ahhhhh..... When I did finally arise, I had flowers, balloons, cards, and Dukin Donuts coffee and donuts! =)

My kids did not fus, fight are argue all day! That was amazing! My youngest isn't feeling well, she's a bit off. Not like her. But still, a great day! My hubby even swept and mopped the kitchen floor for me and changed every diaper today. I literally didn't have to do a thing a today. Wow. =D

I got to relax today. Only did a little laundry (b/c if I didn't, I'd feel bad for not doing a thing) and even got a shower by myself!! I have only had one of those since moving in. lol My youngest likes to walk into the shower with me. She loves it, and there's more than enough room. lol So getting one alone again was nice too. =)

We went over to my mom's tonight for dinner. Both my sisters and their families were there. She made my favorite meal. =) My sister made me my favorite cake. The kids all played wonderfully. *contented sigh*

Oh, and the best part....I got play with adults tonight!! My mom watched Bean (our nickname for our youngest) for us, and my husband, me, both my sisters and their husbands (husband-to-be in one case) all sat around and play Scattagories. We all laughed so hard!! I can't remember the last time I sat around with adults and played a game, let alone one with family.

Good food, good wine, good times. =) Loved it!

We got home tonight as a huge storm was starting up. We were under a warning with large hail and winds 60-70 mph. We put the kids to bed, shut off all the lights, opened the blinds in the morning room, and watched the storm over the field and trees behind our house. It was PERFECT. I love a good thunder storm. More and more lately. It was great.

I know it doesn't seem like much in the way of birthdays to some. But to me, it was all I ever wanted. It was a perfect day. Surrounded by people that I love. An easy, do nothing, relaxing, wonderful day. This, to me, is what life is about. Good times with good people. Today was perfect.

A big thanks to everyone who helped make it so special; from phone calls, to texts, to facebooking, to ... all of it!!! Thank you!

Friday, August 12, 2011


We've finally pretty much settled into our new place. I love it here. I even love our neighbors. I have met a few of them, and every one here seems so open and nice. =) It's refreshing!

The kids got to play with some of the girls on our street today too. I really believe life here is going to be good.

All that being said, I think I am on the verge of an emotional train wreck. At least tonight it feels like it.

I have been in an extreme amount of pain this week. Ends up I was diagnosed with TMJD earlier this week. BLAK. There is no "cure". Just different ways to manage symptoms when they flare up. Stress being a major factor in flare ups. And it's the only one we can think of that may be causing mine.

We just moved. BIG stress. Then there is the transferring the kids schools, which could have gone smoother (lets just put it that way). Then there is tying to get all their school supplies and such in order.

Now I'm on to planning my sister's bridal shower. I LOVE doing it, but it can be stressful too. I just want it to be something she'll love and always remember.

Our first month's bills here in the new place will be coming in the next few weeks and yes, I stress over what they will be. A LOT!! I can only hope to be pleasantly surprised. But we jumped up about 800 sq ft in size. I'm definitely stressing over what this is going to do to our finances. Especially with a wedding coming up, then my daughter's bday and the holidays.... I know I am jumping ahead. But that's what I do. I try to think ahead where finances are concern (try). I'm definitely stressing.

The past few days, even though my pain levels have been really high, I have made sure to make sure my girls have had great days. That thought makes me smile. Knowing they are happy. They are enjoying what's left of their summer. =)

I don't know. Tonight, I sit here, typing, and I crying. It's not just the pain. I don't know what it is. I guess I have just felt overwhelmed maybe? I still have more to do before this place before I declare us officially all settled in. But I need my hubby's help for that. And his schedule has been a bit nuts lately. It's nice that we're mostly settled.

I clean everyday! EVERY DAY!! Something! I feel like if I don't, it would be easy to miss something and fall behind. It's a bigger house. It takes more work. And it's a home I proud of. I want to keep it that way.

What is wrong with me? Why do I feel like crying? I should be on cloud 9! And I am! BLAH!! I hate this. I feel like a weak, whiny baby. GRRRRR! I never have handled pain well. I will admit. I am a wimp. Maybe the medicine they have me on has something to do with it all? Can I at least blame the steroids? lol

Hopefully I can work out eating pizza and wings tomorrow night, crack open a cold beer, and watch our opening pre-season game (I haven't taken my meds today, so hopefully I won't need them tomorrow too). Hopefully I can give my kids another good day, no matter my health. Hopefully this will be a really good weekend.

Typing this out has helped. =) I feel a bit better already. Maybe I just needed to vent. Tomorrow should be a good day. We're going to play it by ear...but doing that so far has worked out great! =)