School starts tomorrow for my girls. And I am saddened by this. We spent a lot of our summer packing and getting ready to move, then moving. We're finally settled and feel like summer is just starting, and instead school is.
It's the time of year when our schedules shift. When everything we have been doing changes. Bed time is earlier. Homework will now be part of our daily lives once again. Schedules will be a part of our lives once again. Not to mention the early hour we must all now arise in the morning.
I wanted more quality time with the kids. This stinks. And to make a mother's heart all the more heavy, my eldest has cried several times this evening. She is so afraid to start a new school. She knows no one. I can understand her anxiety. I have had all the motherly talks with her about being herself and she'll have friends in no time. But she is scared. And I'm worried for her. She's a great kid. I just want her to have an easy time making friends. She had so many at her other school. She will definitely be in my prayers this night.
I truly don't want tomorrow to come. I don't want my kids to start back to school yet. I want more time with them to snuggle and cuddle and play. They're good kids.
But tomorrow, I will put on my brave front. I will give them their special breakfast. I will smile and cheer them on. I will encourage them. That's what mom's do.
Only after they are gone, will I most likely cry, and count the hours until they are home once again. I can't wait to hear about their day. I pray it goes well for them both.
I think this weekend will be one of extra hugs and snuggles for us all.
Yes, it's that time of year for change and shifting once again. No one ever likes it. But it's always necessary.
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Birthday Bash
So today was my birthday. =) And it was an amazing day. I got phone calls, texts, and I am still reeling over how many FB "happy birthday" messages I got today! I didn't realize I knew that many people, let alone that many cared. I am floored!
My hubby got the kids out of the house this morning so I could sleep in. Ahhhhh..... When I did finally arise, I had flowers, balloons, cards, and Dukin Donuts coffee and donuts! =)
My kids did not fus, fight are argue all day! That was amazing! My youngest isn't feeling well, she's a bit off. Not like her. But still, a great day! My hubby even swept and mopped the kitchen floor for me and changed every diaper today. I literally didn't have to do a thing a today. Wow. =D
I got to relax today. Only did a little laundry (b/c if I didn't, I'd feel bad for not doing a thing) and even got a shower by myself!! I have only had one of those since moving in. lol My youngest likes to walk into the shower with me. She loves it, and there's more than enough room. lol So getting one alone again was nice too. =)
We went over to my mom's tonight for dinner. Both my sisters and their families were there. She made my favorite meal. =) My sister made me my favorite cake. The kids all played wonderfully. *contented sigh*
Oh, and the best part....I got play with adults tonight!! My mom watched Bean (our nickname for our youngest) for us, and my husband, me, both my sisters and their husbands (husband-to-be in one case) all sat around and play Scattagories. We all laughed so hard!! I can't remember the last time I sat around with adults and played a game, let alone one with family.
Good food, good wine, good times. =) Loved it!
We got home tonight as a huge storm was starting up. We were under a warning with large hail and winds 60-70 mph. We put the kids to bed, shut off all the lights, opened the blinds in the morning room, and watched the storm over the field and trees behind our house. It was PERFECT. I love a good thunder storm. More and more lately. It was great.
I know it doesn't seem like much in the way of birthdays to some. But to me, it was all I ever wanted. It was a perfect day. Surrounded by people that I love. An easy, do nothing, relaxing, wonderful day. This, to me, is what life is about. Good times with good people. Today was perfect.
A big thanks to everyone who helped make it so special; from phone calls, to texts, to facebooking, to ... all of it!!! Thank you!
My hubby got the kids out of the house this morning so I could sleep in. Ahhhhh..... When I did finally arise, I had flowers, balloons, cards, and Dukin Donuts coffee and donuts! =)
My kids did not fus, fight are argue all day! That was amazing! My youngest isn't feeling well, she's a bit off. Not like her. But still, a great day! My hubby even swept and mopped the kitchen floor for me and changed every diaper today. I literally didn't have to do a thing a today. Wow. =D
I got to relax today. Only did a little laundry (b/c if I didn't, I'd feel bad for not doing a thing) and even got a shower by myself!! I have only had one of those since moving in. lol My youngest likes to walk into the shower with me. She loves it, and there's more than enough room. lol So getting one alone again was nice too. =)
We went over to my mom's tonight for dinner. Both my sisters and their families were there. She made my favorite meal. =) My sister made me my favorite cake. The kids all played wonderfully. *contented sigh*
Oh, and the best part....I got play with adults tonight!! My mom watched Bean (our nickname for our youngest) for us, and my husband, me, both my sisters and their husbands (husband-to-be in one case) all sat around and play Scattagories. We all laughed so hard!! I can't remember the last time I sat around with adults and played a game, let alone one with family.
Good food, good wine, good times. =) Loved it!
We got home tonight as a huge storm was starting up. We were under a warning with large hail and winds 60-70 mph. We put the kids to bed, shut off all the lights, opened the blinds in the morning room, and watched the storm over the field and trees behind our house. It was PERFECT. I love a good thunder storm. More and more lately. It was great.
I know it doesn't seem like much in the way of birthdays to some. But to me, it was all I ever wanted. It was a perfect day. Surrounded by people that I love. An easy, do nothing, relaxing, wonderful day. This, to me, is what life is about. Good times with good people. Today was perfect.
A big thanks to everyone who helped make it so special; from phone calls, to texts, to facebooking, to ... all of it!!! Thank you!
Friday, August 12, 2011
Blah
We've finally pretty much settled into our new place. I love it here. I even love our neighbors. I have met a few of them, and every one here seems so open and nice. =) It's refreshing!
The kids got to play with some of the girls on our street today too. I really believe life here is going to be good.
All that being said, I think I am on the verge of an emotional train wreck. At least tonight it feels like it.
I have been in an extreme amount of pain this week. Ends up I was diagnosed with TMJD earlier this week. BLAK. There is no "cure". Just different ways to manage symptoms when they flare up. Stress being a major factor in flare ups. And it's the only one we can think of that may be causing mine.
We just moved. BIG stress. Then there is the transferring the kids schools, which could have gone smoother (lets just put it that way). Then there is tying to get all their school supplies and such in order.
Now I'm on to planning my sister's bridal shower. I LOVE doing it, but it can be stressful too. I just want it to be something she'll love and always remember.
Our first month's bills here in the new place will be coming in the next few weeks and yes, I stress over what they will be. A LOT!! I can only hope to be pleasantly surprised. But we jumped up about 800 sq ft in size. I'm definitely stressing over what this is going to do to our finances. Especially with a wedding coming up, then my daughter's bday and the holidays.... I know I am jumping ahead. But that's what I do. I try to think ahead where finances are concern (try). I'm definitely stressing.
The past few days, even though my pain levels have been really high, I have made sure to make sure my girls have had great days. That thought makes me smile. Knowing they are happy. They are enjoying what's left of their summer. =)
I don't know. Tonight, I sit here, typing, and I feel....like crying. It's not just the pain. I don't know what it is. I guess I have just felt overwhelmed maybe? I still have more to do before this place before I declare us officially all settled in. But I need my hubby's help for that. And his schedule has been a bit nuts lately. It's nice that we're mostly settled.
I clean everyday! EVERY DAY!! Something! I feel like if I don't, it would be easy to miss something and fall behind. It's a bigger house. It takes more work. And it's a home I proud of. I want to keep it that way.
What is wrong with me? Why do I feel like crying? I should be on cloud 9! And I am! BLAH!! I hate this. I feel like a weak, whiny baby. GRRRRR! I never have handled pain well. I will admit. I am a wimp. Maybe the medicine they have me on has something to do with it all? Can I at least blame the steroids? lol
Hopefully I can work out eating pizza and wings tomorrow night, crack open a cold beer, and watch our opening pre-season game (I haven't taken my meds today, so hopefully I won't need them tomorrow too). Hopefully I can give my kids another good day, no matter my health. Hopefully this will be a really good weekend.
Typing this out has helped. =) I feel a bit better already. Maybe I just needed to vent. Tomorrow should be a good day. We're going to play it by ear...but doing that so far has worked out great! =)
The kids got to play with some of the girls on our street today too. I really believe life here is going to be good.
All that being said, I think I am on the verge of an emotional train wreck. At least tonight it feels like it.
I have been in an extreme amount of pain this week. Ends up I was diagnosed with TMJD earlier this week. BLAK. There is no "cure". Just different ways to manage symptoms when they flare up. Stress being a major factor in flare ups. And it's the only one we can think of that may be causing mine.
We just moved. BIG stress. Then there is the transferring the kids schools, which could have gone smoother (lets just put it that way). Then there is tying to get all their school supplies and such in order.
Now I'm on to planning my sister's bridal shower. I LOVE doing it, but it can be stressful too. I just want it to be something she'll love and always remember.
Our first month's bills here in the new place will be coming in the next few weeks and yes, I stress over what they will be. A LOT!! I can only hope to be pleasantly surprised. But we jumped up about 800 sq ft in size. I'm definitely stressing over what this is going to do to our finances. Especially with a wedding coming up, then my daughter's bday and the holidays.... I know I am jumping ahead. But that's what I do. I try to think ahead where finances are concern (try). I'm definitely stressing.
The past few days, even though my pain levels have been really high, I have made sure to make sure my girls have had great days. That thought makes me smile. Knowing they are happy. They are enjoying what's left of their summer. =)
I don't know. Tonight, I sit here, typing, and I feel....like crying. It's not just the pain. I don't know what it is. I guess I have just felt overwhelmed maybe? I still have more to do before this place before I declare us officially all settled in. But I need my hubby's help for that. And his schedule has been a bit nuts lately. It's nice that we're mostly settled.
I clean everyday! EVERY DAY!! Something! I feel like if I don't, it would be easy to miss something and fall behind. It's a bigger house. It takes more work. And it's a home I proud of. I want to keep it that way.
What is wrong with me? Why do I feel like crying? I should be on cloud 9! And I am! BLAH!! I hate this. I feel like a weak, whiny baby. GRRRRR! I never have handled pain well. I will admit. I am a wimp. Maybe the medicine they have me on has something to do with it all? Can I at least blame the steroids? lol
Hopefully I can work out eating pizza and wings tomorrow night, crack open a cold beer, and watch our opening pre-season game (I haven't taken my meds today, so hopefully I won't need them tomorrow too). Hopefully I can give my kids another good day, no matter my health. Hopefully this will be a really good weekend.
Typing this out has helped. =) I feel a bit better already. Maybe I just needed to vent. Tomorrow should be a good day. We're going to play it by ear...but doing that so far has worked out great! =)
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
WOW
We were told no. We were told it wouldn't happen. But here I am, sitting in my brand new home, with my family. And it has felt like home since day one!
My poor husband has been working hard on getting the rental ready to turn back in, while I'm working hard to unpack and get us settled here. There is still so much to be done. I do wish he was here to help me more, but I know what he is doing is just as important.
I was unpacking a box today of things from our old house (the one before the rental). It was a box of pictures and things we had on the walls there. The very first thing I pulled out was a cross that hung on our wall. In the center of it, it reads: WE WALK BY FAITH NOT BY SIGHT 2nd Cor. 5:7
I felt like that summed my journey to this home. I feel like I was being taught to live that. It wasn't easy. And I stumbled...a lot. But as a whole, I did it. (I also had some pretty good people surrounding me and encouraging me. That helped a lot)
But somewhere inside, I know that this is something that isn't learned over night or in just one trial. It's something that I will continue to learn. There will be more journies down the road helping to strengthen this in me. But for now, I'm glad that this particular journey is over. And that I/We are sitting in our home that everyone told us we would couldn't have or wouldn't have. I'm sitting in our miracle.
Miracles do happen. You just have to believe. You have to have faith.
My poor husband has been working hard on getting the rental ready to turn back in, while I'm working hard to unpack and get us settled here. There is still so much to be done. I do wish he was here to help me more, but I know what he is doing is just as important.
I was unpacking a box today of things from our old house (the one before the rental). It was a box of pictures and things we had on the walls there. The very first thing I pulled out was a cross that hung on our wall. In the center of it, it reads: WE WALK BY FAITH NOT BY SIGHT 2nd Cor. 5:7
I felt like that summed my journey to this home. I feel like I was being taught to live that. It wasn't easy. And I stumbled...a lot. But as a whole, I did it. (I also had some pretty good people surrounding me and encouraging me. That helped a lot)
But somewhere inside, I know that this is something that isn't learned over night or in just one trial. It's something that I will continue to learn. There will be more journies down the road helping to strengthen this in me. But for now, I'm glad that this particular journey is over. And that I/We are sitting in our home that everyone told us we would couldn't have or wouldn't have. I'm sitting in our miracle.
Miracles do happen. You just have to believe. You have to have faith.
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
If anyone from my other blog follows this one.....
This was sent to me the other day via Email. The house we have rented the past 2 years...we always called our transitional house. I am sharing this not only because did I feel it home with us coming to end of our transitional period, but because I also know a few others who are still in theirs. God speed my friends.
The Email:
The realization struck me that we are at the end of a two-year transition. It's been a rather difficult two years with lots of changes, and we have to let go of things that represented safety and security to us. As I pondered this time of transition, I could see that God has brought us to a higher and yet a more profound place in Him that we would not have discovered or achieved apart from this transition. And, I rejoiced. Then, I heard the voice of the Lord: Beloved, you have indeed completed this time of transition, but there are many others who are not quite in the same cycle and await their time of conclusion. I speak to those who still cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel, and I tell you that I am with you to bring you also to a higher place in Me. Your security is not in worldly positions or things that you possess, but in your eternal relationship with Me. Trust Me to bring you through.
The Email:
The realization struck me that we are at the end of a two-year transition. It's been a rather difficult two years with lots of changes, and we have to let go of things that represented safety and security to us. As I pondered this time of transition, I could see that God has brought us to a higher and yet a more profound place in Him that we would not have discovered or achieved apart from this transition. And, I rejoiced. Then, I heard the voice of the Lord: Beloved, you have indeed completed this time of transition, but there are many others who are not quite in the same cycle and await their time of conclusion. I speak to those who still cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel, and I tell you that I am with you to bring you also to a higher place in Me. Your security is not in worldly positions or things that you possess, but in your eternal relationship with Me. Trust Me to bring you through.
Monday, July 4, 2011
UGH!! GRRR
It's been one hell of a day. Everything going wrong.
I had a decision before me tonight. In the end... I went with what I always do... talk it out. I can't leave my family...not even to teach them to respect others. There has to be a better way.
We have all talked and have laid a few new rules and things we are going to do down. Including a family meeting once a month.
In the mean time, I pray, work on it, and hope for the best.
I had a decision before me tonight. In the end... I went with what I always do... talk it out. I can't leave my family...not even to teach them to respect others. There has to be a better way.
We have all talked and have laid a few new rules and things we are going to do down. Including a family meeting once a month.
In the mean time, I pray, work on it, and hope for the best.
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Bridal Shower
My baby sister is getting married in 3 months. I can't believe it! And I don't mean that in a horrible way. She is beautiful, and fun, and smart. She has her own career and hobbies. She's a great catch! It's just very hard to believe my BABY sister is old enough to get married. It's hard to see her as THAT grown up sometimes. I guess the big sister in me wants to keep her little, a little too much. lol
Growing up we didn't always have the best of relationships. We loved each other, don't get me wrong, but, there is a 5 yr age difference and it showed. I think we were both closer to our middle sister growing up. It's only been in the past few years our relationship has moved passed sisterhood, into also a friendship. Now we have both, and I'm so happy for that.
I am going to be throwing her bridal shower! I'm so excited for this opportunity. I didn't think I was going to be able too. Typically it's the Maid of Honor's job to do this. I am not in the wedding. (no worries...I'm FINE with that! My kids are in it, so I'm happy!). And also, typically, immediate members of the brides family are not to throw the bridal showers, against etiquette and blah blah blah. But we are throwing the rules into the wind! lol Woohoo!
The Maid of Honor is in SEVERAL weddings at pretty much around the same time, and just could not find the time to throw the shower. I was approached to see if I could help out and do it. =) OF COURSE!!! I am honored to be able to this for my sister! I just didn't think I was suppose too. I am so happy she came to ask me if I would mind helping out!
I think that actually hurt my sister's feelings in the beginning. The fact that I (we her family) weren't doing much in the way of helping with the wedding. We weren't trying to be hurtful, honest. We were trying to do things the "correct" way. I think now my sister understands this better and realizes it was never about NOT wanting to help or throw a shower. And I'm glad she understands it now. =)
In truth, I am honored to be able to throw her this shower. Since I'm not in the wedding (by choice), it is a way I CAN contribute and show my support for my sister and her up-coming marriage. I'm glad by throwing it, we aren't stepping on anyone's toes either.
I have been researching cakes, invites, games, foods served, decorations. LOL I LOVE THIS!!! This is fun to me! I just wish I had more money to spend. lol But I'm determined to make it as nice as possible. I just hope I can do her proud.
Growing up we didn't always have the best of relationships. We loved each other, don't get me wrong, but, there is a 5 yr age difference and it showed. I think we were both closer to our middle sister growing up. It's only been in the past few years our relationship has moved passed sisterhood, into also a friendship. Now we have both, and I'm so happy for that.
I am going to be throwing her bridal shower! I'm so excited for this opportunity. I didn't think I was going to be able too. Typically it's the Maid of Honor's job to do this. I am not in the wedding. (no worries...I'm FINE with that! My kids are in it, so I'm happy!). And also, typically, immediate members of the brides family are not to throw the bridal showers, against etiquette and blah blah blah. But we are throwing the rules into the wind! lol Woohoo!
The Maid of Honor is in SEVERAL weddings at pretty much around the same time, and just could not find the time to throw the shower. I was approached to see if I could help out and do it. =) OF COURSE!!! I am honored to be able to this for my sister! I just didn't think I was suppose too. I am so happy she came to ask me if I would mind helping out!
I think that actually hurt my sister's feelings in the beginning. The fact that I (we her family) weren't doing much in the way of helping with the wedding. We weren't trying to be hurtful, honest. We were trying to do things the "correct" way. I think now my sister understands this better and realizes it was never about NOT wanting to help or throw a shower. And I'm glad she understands it now. =)
In truth, I am honored to be able to throw her this shower. Since I'm not in the wedding (by choice), it is a way I CAN contribute and show my support for my sister and her up-coming marriage. I'm glad by throwing it, we aren't stepping on anyone's toes either.
I have been researching cakes, invites, games, foods served, decorations. LOL I LOVE THIS!!! This is fun to me! I just wish I had more money to spend. lol But I'm determined to make it as nice as possible. I just hope I can do her proud.
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